Dreamless Nights

Maybe I have been tired. Maybe I haven't been thinking much. Maybe I haven't been self reflecting. Maybe I have been lying to myself and living in denial.

I realized that I haven't been dreaming at all. No nightmares. No sweet dreams. No sleep paralysis. No deep and peaceful rest. Not even the feeling of being stuck in limbo.

It has been a couple of days of wishing my life stays this way. Little treats for me to look forward to just to get through each day, each week, each month and ultimately, each year. Really, I am neither greedy nor ambitious at all. I just wanna pursue peace, contentment and lead my simple life with a little extra flavour of humour and love.

I realized that I have adapted to being satisfied over little things. Nice meals with my friends, movies with lessons to learn from, songs that make my tears fall, the colour of sunset, anticipating entertaining emails from the few who can really make me laugh and cry, solving problematic issues at work, getting through gruelling meetings in one piece, delightful smiles and laughters I managed to induce, fruitful conversations, the smell of rain and bakuteh.......

Life is hard enough to overlook all these little blessings....

Life is indeed easier to get by when we have something to look forward to.....

I'm used to the dreamless nights these days but somehow, I love to sleep and dream a glamourous, romantic and moving dream only to wake up feeling alive once more.

But then again, maybe I wouldn't wanna wake up.