Helpless

I can't concentrate at work and I hate feeling so overwhelmed. It is just so bloody painful to feel this way. Why do I let myself fall into the trap? I have so many things I should be doing and I should prioritize but the hell I'm doing now....
I wish someone can just reach into my chest and rip my heart out. I don't want to feel this crappy anymore. I don't want to be able to feel at all. Numb me out, please.